Am not !

8 Apr

I’m not “a” one night stand,

am not the wreck of your so called “dreamland”,

am not the negative energy inside,

and seriously i have nothing to hide !

I’m not the bloody red halo around your heart,

am not your weak “pieces” you so call art,

am not the confusion nor the illusion

nor the pathetic fact that you cant tell them apart !

am simple ,mysterious,tender ,funny and above all smart .

I’m not your lousy sixth sense,

nor your rotten self-defense,

am not your insecurities or the hastiness that follows

nor the bullshit and the crap you swallow !

am the tender embrace that fills your empty hollow !

I’m not the darkness in your day,

nor the reason you feel like running away,

am not the fingernails that you bite,

nor the books you despite,

am the light of your so called insight !

am not the pain you feel,

nor the wounds you are trying to heal,

am not your rebound,

and am not your rock concert with no sound !

am the steadiness of your ground !

am not the rash on your skin,

nor the hatred fire within,

am not the abundance you’ve been through,

nor the heartache you lived and knew,

am the joy and your beautiful powerful sunrise view,

and you have to know i will never ever be redefined by any man

and certainly if that man is you ..

am a man’s happy dream,

am his sparkle of hope and light beam,

am the hug he will be yearning all day,

i’ll have the flowers he’ll buy on the month of may,

am the crane he will lean on when he’s old,

am the one he will care for when she’s cold,

am his serenity , peace and life,

am his lover,girlfriend,daughter,mother and wife,

i know i am ..

and for that i am smiling .. for HIM .. i am ! :)


16 Responses to “Am not !”

  1. Neisy M 08/04/2010 at 11:08 AM #

    Can I possibly love this post any more?!
    Seriously,MSA,that was quite beyond amazing!
    Your quite a talent cindy.I simply loved it!

    • Cinderella 08/04/2010 at 11:42 AM #

      weeeeeeeeeeee !

      coming from you seriously after the last three posts you’ve written is something !

      Thank you : )

      mmmmwah mwah and mwah

  2. gjoez 08/04/2010 at 2:24 PM #

    I LOOOOVED IT.. and I thought it was a real song or something l daraget enny est3’arabt enny mal2tesh the name of the band/singer fel aa7’er as usual! WAY TO GO

    and tab3an.. it makes perfect sense..

    Your words choice is amazing!

    shofty 3aksaha? beta3et Ibhog? It’s really nice too.. :D

  3. Cinderella 08/04/2010 at 5:09 PM #

    : ))
    G you made my day !
    thank you .. seriously !

    well as for Ibhog .. after i wrote this i went around checking all the blogs and i found Ibhog’s i was like .. (say what?) :D

    3aks-ha bel zabt !
    elfekra this is the Not i have another one , the Am (

    fa “Noha” made me feel like sometimes i do make sense :D

  4. ibhog 08/04/2010 at 5:26 PM #

    I agree .. this post was amazing!

    Cindy .. you rock, keep up! :)

    • Cinderella 08/04/2010 at 6:05 PM #

      it’s a beautiful feeling that when you write down your own personal feelings and you put it out there and people just dont think it weird or rude or strange.. and they actually like it,or relate to it and encourage you to keep going !

      that’s one of the most joyful feelings ever ! :)

      Thank you Ibhog..
      Thank you everyone : )

  5. ze2red 08/04/2010 at 8:28 PM #

    This was fantastic, amazing, a master piece for you so far.

    And if it matters, i am not the one he wants me to change to be.
    I’m not a yoyo that he leaves and expects to come back when needed.

    I am me, and this is the way i’ll always be.

    • Cinderella 09/04/2010 at 12:11 AM #

      kol dh? me? ya Allah !

      ya ze2reda you made my heart sing ! thank you so much !

      you tell him sweets !

      i really love the lines :)
      You are you and that’s enough ! :)

  6. KADDURA 11/04/2010 at 1:25 AM #


  7. Cinderella 11/04/2010 at 1:32 AM #

    thank you so much Kaddura : )

  8. Mostafa Shaheen 11/04/2010 at 2:46 AM #

    its more than perfect and its a master piece
    honey u know u u got everybody’s keys and u know so well how to reach their hearts
    love u sandy

  9. Cinderella 11/04/2010 at 2:52 AM #

    : ))
    Mostafa you’re here !!!!!!!!
    wow !
    you made my eyes full of happy tears !
    bgd .. !
    Thank you so much for your support and care !
    i love you too brother ! :)

  10. lendmeurear 11/04/2010 at 9:17 AM #

    I do agree with everyone. Those really are great words!

    • Cinderella 11/04/2010 at 3:50 PM #

      thank you lendmeurear :)

  11. Rasha 28/06/2010 at 7:49 PM #

    very nice ;)

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